Let my spirit soar again,

To the highest of heights,

And the depths of the sea.

Where peace lives,

And I am free.


Not defeated

I see you.

Wounded, but not defeated.

Tired, yet willing to go on.

You have given your strength for God.

Yet, the strength scriptures are unable to renew your capacity for leading the church forwards.

You desire time,

But are afraid of that time.

Take it – it is yours!

Stand firm and allow my wind to blow on your face.

To encircle you.

Stand firm while I renew your spirit,

Washing away the pain, the hurt,

The burdens you carry.

Let me take them from you.

Your current armour is weakened by the wars you have been through.

I am replacing it.

Reinforced armour for the war ahead…

Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.  (Ephesians 6:10-18)

Holy Spirit

I see you there

Mist over the water

Waiting watching

In one breath

You become fire

Burning consuming

Not destroying

But making alive

Hiding God Himself.

Then you leave

Soaring over calm waters

Into the skies

So brilliant in their intensity

You disappear in the sun’s rays

Always leaving something of yourself behind.

One day

Just take one day at a time for that is how I planned it.

I Will Teach You

I am with you. Look at the streets of New York. They are not so bad. Brimming with life and colour. As is London. See Tokyo. Busy, yes. But even there I am working. You will find me in Paris, Edinburgh, Johannesburg…

Don’t be afraid. I will send you a friend. You will meet in unexpected circumstances. Stay close to him. He will comfort you. He will love you. Do not deny him for I love him and have given him great depth; even if it is not obvious. He will walk you through this life.

Bring hope. Bring life. Bring beauty. For you are these things. Take me with you and show me to the world with your unique perspective.

Do not be anxious, for I will teach you.

Now fly!

Teach Me to Fly

I am on the edge of a cliff, looking out over a vast landscape of cities. Cities squashed together. It is early evening and the cities are sparkling with lights. I am really high up and standing on the very edge. I don’t want to go down. I like it up here. Closer to GOD. Closer to the skies. Closer to the heavens. Up here is freedom.

The wind blows on my face and I open my arms wide.

I know GOD wants me to go down there. I don’t want to. It is dirty. There is evil. I will get sucked in. I don’t know how to survive.

How can I stay pure and true to you in a place like that? Please don’t make me go.

But GOD said go!

And I flew down.


2017 is almost upon us. My first thought for next year is to “be prepared”. Our old Brownie motto. More than ever do I realise its importance in life. Next year I want to be prepared.

I also want to have little tea gatherings for some of the mommies and kids. That is a first. So that I can make friends and Ewan can be a friend.

I turned 40 this year and did nothing except have a meal with immediate family. I realised it slipped by without so much as a balloon or birthday cake. I realise also that that made me sad. I have been learning about sowing and reaping. I am not sowing into the friendship thing therefore not reaping either. I need to start sowing in this area.

2017 is a year of sowing. The fruit may only come later.

I will create gifts for birthdays and I will have little tea gatherings. Maybe even craft parties. This all requires thought and preparation. I will use my diary and do things early.

Lord, you know my heart more than me. You know my need for friendship in a place that is not my home, where even the seasons are different and life starts earlier. Father, I commit to you once again my life, my thoughts, my dreams and my prayers. Guide me in being a blessing to others and to use my gifts and talents as I need. I pray for a bigger capacity to do all that I need to do and I pray for a radical change in our financial situation. In Jesus’ name I pray these things.