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Turn Yourself to me, and have mercy on me,

For I am desolate and afflicted.

The troubles of my heart have enlarged;

Bring me out of my distresses! Psalm 25: 16-18

I found this verse which perfectly fits how I am feeling. Why I am feeling distressed is difficult to explain. Lack of sleep due to children does not help. But it is more than that. Recently this panic has come about, almost engulfing me, almost choking me. The tormentor. Criticising and accusing, convincing me that my life is not worth living, that I am effectively useless. That I can’t do anything, or anything right at least. I hold onto the fact that God will rescue me, that He is here with me and that I must hold steadfast onto my faith. I am. Something has to change. I know Him. He has rescued me before. I have seen the pit of death. But I have also seen life, real life lived in the Heavenlies. I want to be there again. One day I will be there forever. Until then I must take a stand against the accuser. The one who has lost. And the one who has no hold of me whatsoever.

He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

The Lord will perfect that which concerns me – it is true. Until then I must hold onto the knowledge of Him and rest under the shelter of His wings, fully trusting, fully waiting and soak in His Almighty presence. To be at one with Him. My God! 


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